Dear Tony,
Have you ever felt that your life was changed because of a person you met? In an alternate reality there is a world without me as no one stopped me from jumping that day. Things snowball faster than we often realize. In another reality there is a Tony who never dealt with his drinking problem…
Sober Thing
5 Years 60 Months 1826 Days 43,830 Hours 2,629,800 Minutes 157,680,000 Seconds January 11, 2025 marked the 5th year in my sobriety journey. And when I look back over the past 5 years it’s amazing to see the person who I’ve grown to love, me. I will make one clarification is that I’m “California” Sober…
Just Don’t Forget
Another year has passed, and here again I sit reflecting on where I’ve been and where I’m going. However this is not going to be another “#YearofTheHustle” song and dance. I’ve come to realize how much I’ve grown as an individual and the simple fact is that my time is my most valuable resource. There…
The Super Double Secret Project
Here a teaser for a super long term passion project…
Finding Satori (悟り)
I said finding Satori, not Dori. I know where Dori is at the moment. She is too busy learning to speak whale and riding the currents to Sydney. I just need to keep working towards understanding why I do the things that I do and the nature of my consciousness. Just keep meditating. Just keep…
From Dead End Roads to Kenshō (見性)
“If you feel it, chase it” – Kate (Twisters, 2024) I’m not getting any younger and I realized that I haven’t been living for quite some time. It’s time to seriously put an effort into changing this recent discovery. I have been “aware” of this idea for quite some time, but I kept looking down…
My Story Vol. 2 Chapter 4: A Little bit of わび-さび (Wabi-Sabi)
I’ve really never considered myself to be a religious person, but lately I’ve been diving back into the practice of Zen Buddhism. Back during the dark days of COVID my nightly ritual was to invite my friend Mary Jane back to my place to have our esoteric conversations about life and our place in the…
My Story Vol. 2: Chapter 3 Fireflies
One night when I was driving home from work and a wave of nostalgia hit me like a tsunami. In that singular moment I travelled back in time and unlocked a core memory. Now where I used to live in Floriduh was your typical concrete jungle where every square inch of land was developed or…
My Story Vol. 2 Chapter 2: Buildings and Mountains
This is chapter is intended to have background music to garner the full impact of the feeling that I’m portraying. Once the lyrics of this song start you may begin reading. Until then picture yourself walking in a place of serenity. August 2021 marked the end of a major chapter in the epic that is…
Wallflower
I’m not sure if this the ‘tism or self-confidence issue or just plain ole social anxiety, but I really hold myself back in social situations. Personally I don’t believe it’s due to a lack of self-confidence as I’m very secure in my own skin and my own identity. At work you’ll see me in hot…
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